Tears

28.02.2009

Promise

26.02.2009...Thursday..

Because of promise u had made, then u need to follow for yr rest of life???
I had made many promises...
In the same time, I had also break so much of promises..
I felt that I was very stupid that make so much promises..
I cannot obey it~~~

When breaking those promises, one will felt disappointed or hurt...
That y y should we made promises???
If u never make any promises, then u would never break it~~~~
Never break it mean u will always be in the good good status...
without saying by other.. "this guy or girl like to break promise one~~~"
It save yr reputation too...
RIGHT?????

Therefore, one should try and avoid making any promises....
Me too.....
I will try and avoid any promises which might affect me...
Prevention better than cure....
Later the problem cannot cure, then mean game over between something and something...
It might affect me and other...
For both also not good...

THINK B4 U MAKE ANY DECISION~~!!!!!

what can I do??

26.02.2009...

Hush please~~~
No asking me y and wat happen....
I don't know how to explain...
I just cannot control it...
What can I do???

Before it too late... Pls don't care about me...
I have no idea on myself~~!!!!

I felt very inferiority..
Everyone in my class seem very pro in maths, But I...
I understand some oli...
understand did not mean u can do the question...
I facing problem in maths..
Next week, math test....
I don't wan to be lowest is the classs..
I miss Huey chin... cause she would teach me difficult maths...
T.T.....

HELP~~~~HELP~~~HELP~~~~

nothing~~~

25.02.2009... Wednesday...

I have many title in my mind about what to write in my blog...
But, I just can't write out all....
I don't know what went wrong in my mind...
I feel like very uncomfortable...
I hate something that had happened!!!!
It is too much...
I don't know how to express my pressure feeling~~!!!
Damn it.. Damn all the words YOU say~~~
Yr words SUCK!!! damn it ... damn it... damn it..
I would like to complain many things more...
But here I stopped..

..... to be continue~~~

knock knock knock...

23.02.2009...Monday...

I had lost my key of my heart...
I had lost it at somewhere out there...
I had lost it and impossible to break it..
I had lost it and hard to find it back....

My heart is growing something special....
If not under control, it might become a magic flower someday...
A magic flower which make me cruel in making some discussion.
A magic flower which make me become gentle in everything...

Do u know how cruel when u say something tat hurt others' feeling?
I am not mean enough to do or decide something~~~
I hate myself by being someone who can't control myself..
Someone please knock me and wake me up..
Please knock knock head....
And knock knock my door of the heart..
Or please find me another key of my heart~~!!!

Knock Knock Knock..~~~~

New phone

21.02.2009.... Saturday...

I feel over the blue moon...
My mummy had bought a new phone for me...
But later when I got money tat time, I will pay back my mummy...

My phone model is E71... hehe....
I will cherish one~~~
MUMMY, THANK YOU VERY MUCH~~!!!
MUACH~~~~~

my brother

21.02.2009... Saturday....

My brother get sickness... He get one sickness call "quiet disease"
He did not speak to anyone else in the family... the whole person become really suck....
Where is my dear brother went??? really feel sad...

Anyone can help in finding my brother back??
I had drop my precious tear because of this...
y? y become like tat??
I hope he would tell me everything, but his mouth had filled with gold...
I would spend all my time to him if he willing to tell everything to me....

No mood~~~

19.02.2009... Thursday....

2day got lab experiment...
I fail it... I understand all the things, but my partner~~~
He say "Let me do it... I draw out the plan one"
As he say so, then I just helping him to take the wire and tell him where should place the wire...
But he say.. you sit there quiet and quiet!!!
I don't like his attitude.. then when something wrong, he say.... "What u had done??"
I did nothing!!!
Then everyone seem done in their circuit, they went out and wan eat lunch...
Then my partner say:" You continue la.. I go eat lunch!!!"
He is too much la~~~!!!! He thought he is the oli one who are hungry???
I am hungry too!!! And I did not take my breakfast too~~~
Finally, he sat down and do for another short moment.. But something still went wrong!!!
He just very good in saying thing la.. say say say but do?? no no no...
After lunch, we went to the lab again to continue the rest...
Still cannot be done... He skipped the math lecture and sat in the lab to continue...
BUT~~~ He failed it again.. he say "I don't know wat went wrong..."
He asked me to place the IC and wire, then I place it..
But, the light cannot light one.. then He say..."Aiyo...let u do, not even a light been lighted..."
Blaming me leh~~ He is very pandai!!! Haih...
I so angry but cannot say anything cause the light just did not lighted...
I have no mood in anything liao!~~!!!
Pls pray for me so that I will succeed my design 2moro~!!!! Pls Pls Pls~~~
And I really wanna cry already cause everyone is done except me...
Fail already~~~ How how how??
Pls pray hard for me!!!

T.T

17.02.2009... Tuesday...

I felt like I am so troublesome lo...
I know that every time he wan enter westlake also need a pass, but I still ask him to fetch me...
I felt guilty and feel that I am bad!!!!
Wuwuwu...

At night, Vivian say I fat liao....
Oh My God...
I wan OD liao~~~~
Seriously wan od liao...
I wan... I wan... I wan!!!!
If not, I will die in horror~~!!!!
T.T~~~~T.T~~~~T.T

Appreciate

16.02.2009.... Monday...
Thank you very much, SS...
I will appreciate it~~~

1st impression and BFF... XoXo

15.02.2009..

"I am so fierce one"---->This is my sentence...
When I said it, every friends will said "wah... so scare!!!!"
Seriously, I am very fierce...
Because I seldom be fierce with my friends, then everyone not afraid of me...
I always said this sentence cause I don't wan let other to bully me, not even once chance for anyone... Except my Best friend lo... (^_^)

But, some of my friends also said that :"I know u are so fierce by yr face!!! "
Oh my God... Because of my face then can category already~~~ =.='''

I remembered when I form2 tat time, I was alone, then no one would like to sit beside me...
Then I saw one girl name Huey Yong.. she was alone, then I asked her wan to sit beside me or not...
Then, finally I made a friend... (^_^)
After mix around with her and her friends, they all cards on the table and said...
When we 1st look at u tat time, we all felt that u are very very very fierce...
So, no one dare to walk and talked to you~~~ T.T....
My heart lost a piece... Because of my mature face, then I consider in fierce category...
But, after saying that.. they continued....
After mix around for so long, then we had drop own spectacle...
Because you are so so funny, crazy and friendly....
They are now my best friends....
Huey Yong, Yan Ching, Hui Hui & Zhen Ni~~~
Friends from form 2 until now... 5 years friendship...
And I am the big sister among them.. all younger than me... then I am the one who protect them... haha... They all would share their experience and sadness with me...
I still remembered their problem one by one clearly...
Besides big sister among them, I also as a counselor for each of them...
For solving their problems~~~ BFF, ya... I love you all~~!!!

When I went into Utar that time, no one talked with me...
The 1st person in the class I know is Huey Chin...
After mix around for 2 months, she said...
When 1st time saw you, I thought u are student who also reading and quiet student ..
like students who get very very good result...
Then she also drop her spectacle, she continued by saying..
But, u are not.., HaHAHA.... U are friendly, crazy and talkative person...
SO happy that she never said I looked fierce... haha.. (^_^)

Yew... she been saying I fierce....
haha~~~ Cause she that time don't know me well...
The 1st time I know Yew is in the class, but we introduce ourselve in front of my house(1500)...
She and Har asked me for dinner, I said "Yes", but they had ordered delivery without inform me... and I had wait for them for long long time until I pass my dinner time...
Bad impression... T.T...
After knowing for long time, Yew said I looked fierce and also talkative...
She said because of my look, I looked fierce... Pity face I have... T.T
FIERCE~~~FIERCE~~~FIERCE~~~!!!!
But, after she know me longer...
She say I am friendly type person and can share experience...
haha..
she is my best friend now in UTAR...
Because of her, I never alone when getting dump by someone...
Because of her, I never take meal alone...
Because of her, I got someone to bully...
haha... wakaka... hahaha.....
Yew, friendship forever o~~~
BFF ya, I love you, Yew!!! (^_^)

The one who I appreciate, I will always remember them...
Always treat them with the true heart as will not lost anything...
If get hurt, don't give up!!!
You should thanks he or she cause U had knew his or her personality...
DO NOT treat other badly because u scare of getting hurt again...
It is not fair to other who really wan to be close with u~!!!!
I remember clearly every friends and their speciality~~~

I love all my friends...

XoXo : SKy~~~~

14.02.2009

Saturday~~~

1st time Valentine~~~ I think my dear also the same~~!! haha~~~
I went to Ipoh with him~~~ and also with his mummy present~~!!
Tat mean, we are not go out alone...
He had gave me a hand-wear circle... quite big-size!!!
When shopping tat time, I scare it will fly away... then I hold it very tie..
I don't wan lost anything that he had gave to me.. everything he gave seem important to me...
After shopping, his mummy bring me to a restaurant...
She ordered shark fin.. wah... really grand meal~~ (^_^)
Nice nice nice~~~ Thank you, aunty!!!!
Besides, my dear also drove. He fetching me and his mum...
This is the 1st time, I fetch by my bf using car~~~ (^_^)
His drive quite okay~~~
After tat, his mum went down and bought pamelons.. I think total 7 pamelons...
While she went down and buy Pamelons, dear and I take photos...
haha... nice nice nice.. I like taking photo... (^_^)

Thank you for the hand-wear u gave..
Although too big, I will still wear it...
Happy Valentine's day!!!!

Dear, I love you~~~

Happy and smile~~~

11.02.2009, Wednesday, Sunny day

I was so happy this few days although might become busy a bit ~~~
I long time didn't become so 8 already~~~ These few day... I went and read someone's blog...
His blog contains no pictures but the way he written his blog very straight forward and funny...
But one thing I really don't understand is ...Y he put his name as "I am dead man"??!!
I do like his blog although most of his blo g is about he and his girlfriend always quarrel...
I feel funny when I read it... (^_^)

This few days, I slept quite late (around 4o'clock in the mid-night)...
Very suffer~~~(T.T)~~~
I have many things wanna say, but how I start it?? I don't really know~~

My class.. After I went in Degree, I am always alone.... Mayb because of the special status...
I not afraid of alone because alone is the starting of make friends.... (^_^)
Yesterday, I with my course-mate (all guys) and planned to eat lunch together with them...
At 1st, I would like to sit together with them and eat but one thing make me change my mind...
Tat is: It is separate is better way when all guys would like to sit together and talk about anything...
So, I sit alone at another side with some girls (From Chinese Study one) that I don't know...
Sometimes have to do so although not really like tat feeling of alone cause of everyone...
Sam had told me that he had many many many Ex.. Oh no~~~ Don't really believe him by his look~~~Haha... Wakakakakakaka~~~~~~~~

2day, I ate lunch with them but I felt like y everyone like don't like talking much one??
Last time, when take lunch tat time, everyone will give their opinion about the lesson which we attending...
I LIKE TALKING!!!! So, if u had started a title, I will say as much as possible because my mouth did not filled with gold, so, why so scare of talking leh???? scare of the golds drop from yr mouth, right?? Wakaka.... you all think too much already~~~
S@m 2day passed paper and chat with me...
Although this is a childish action, it is the only way to chat with saying anything~~~HaH@~~~
During the Pengajian Malaysia class, Tan Tin Soon bully Swee Seong... Haha....
Isn't every big-sized guy also bully small-size guy???
TTS had set up an order to SS :"You MUST same group with me in the Tamil class!!!!"
Scary TTS!!! SS just sit there and without saying anything~~~ Just smile to TTS~~~~
I think he was speachless that time~~~~!!!! Pity guy~~~
Therefore, this had told us, not to bullied by a big-sized people, if not, you are the one who getting in trouble~~~
Wakakaka~~~ (^0^)

Get yr lesson lo, SS... (^_^)

COuple

08.02.2009.... Sunday....SUNNY day

Why so complicated??? As couple, why need to quarrel??
But sometimes without quarrel, u would never understand what yr partner thinking about....
Last time, when I was in Puppy Love tat time, my Ex also always quarrel with me...
As a result, I break with him and stay happier compared to last time....

Sometimes, breaking is a better way to start a new life and give chances to other...
From my experience, I had started new style of life~~~
All bad memory had deleted from my memory space... TQ for letting me away~~!!!
Now, new relation start but I feel like I had not ready at all~~~
Because of my Degree starts, I feel like have not enough time to do revision and exercise...
Sometimes, I had think something about "Breaking Freeze" because I felt like suffer.....

BF whole week did not called or sms u? This thing I really really cannot accepted...
All my friends asking the relation between He and I, but I said that we had lost connection for one whole week and it is during holiday (Chinese New Year)....
I felt like very difficult to accept this... But this is the truth~~~
DO u know how hurt am I, dear?? Do u ever think of me.. although u said u everyday went home late... How long would be taken for just one sms???!!!
My brother even asked me "u n sw break already??" .. I just keep quiet and try my best to avoid the question he asked~~~
Actually, in my dictionary... no connection mean nothing special...
Even my normal friends, they would send a sms for me to wish me happy new year~~~
Dear?? Do or send nothing~~~ I really mind about this...
Really really really~~~~

I hate that~~!!! As a couple, connection is the most important thing...
If in far distance of relation, connection between heart is important...
Do trust each other although sometimes they might lie+ing~~~
Sometimes although the distance is near, the distance between heart might also be far far away~~~~

suck

04.02.2009, Wednesday, Sunny day

2day I talked a lots with my course-mate, this make me so happy because I did not feel lonely for that moment. On the afternoon I even went out with S@M, YingRen and YeeJun.... 1st time eat lunch with them... That YingRen and YeeJun also from foundation one, they had repeated the mathematic1, that why they had late half year...

After lunch, i went back to my room and slept for one hour... Nice and sweet nap...
2day, my class just have 8 people attending the Pengajian Malaysia~~~
All of them SKIP CLASS~~~

Evening, I knew that someone said my bad words...
Mr.K is BACK~~~ His damn and Idiot action came out again~~~
He told Boo, QSan and others about the SSPN things...
I admit I said him selfish, then?? AM I really wrong???
He didn't told me about anything about PTPTN Loan and also about the SSPN things, and also the pin number things... One of these also did not inform me..Just because of I just asking for the application form...As a friend, should these things happen to your another friend??
This action is very irressponcibility at all~~~
And also I do apologize to him about I saying him selfish... Then he said to friends "If killed someone, then apologize can solve problem??"
WHAT SHOULD I DO?? SORRY already said out from my mouth... and what he wants??
I never wonder that his mouth like that..... This had help me in making a conclusion about him~~~ Never asking anything from him and also never asking for his help...
Besides, I had bought the pin number after YC inform me... Then Mr.K asked other about do I know the pin number things?! They said me know about this...
"Who told her??"Mr.K asked... "YC!!!"they answered...
After they answer these, he said "YC is such a "BEH KI", he told SKY?! Then, both also become "BEH KI"!!!"... Such a sarcastic words he used...
When I heard these, these did not hurt me... It hurting his own friend.... How can one friend said another friend's bad things?? This is NOT the true friend..
In my mind, as long as he told me what should I do for the PTPTN loan , then he is so much better than Mr.K who depend on HIS MOUTH for creating problem...
Until now, I will never change a word form my mouth...
"Mr.K, u are really a SELFISH GUY~~~" These had installed in my mind and never delete it until my mind shut down~~~

After New Year

02.02.2009, Monday, Rainy day

Yesterday I back to Kampar...
And I had started a fight with J, I kept saying he is selfish~~~
Last time I asked him to take the ptptn application form for me, but he said no form..
so, I also did not asked anything cause I thought he knew all the information already then will told me about that... But, he did not told me anything about PTPTN...
I asked him why did not told me anything, then he said ... u said wan the form only ma..
How i know u wish to know about PTPTN....(WTH)
I really felt he is so selfish, but fine already... Nothing I can do~~~

2day, I had been blocked by the Utar security guard~~~
I need to walk to campus everyday??? What a sad news... T.T
I don't wan... I parked my motor at a side, then I quickly stop a car..
And then I asked the driver whether I can took a ride to campus~~~
Really pity one, u know?? walk everyday or take bus..
Let me calculate the price of taking bus everyday: (RM0.70*2)*5=RM7.00 per week
If u told the bus for one semester or trimester : RM7.00*14=RM98.00
One year (14+14+7) : RM7.00*35=RM245.00 per year..
How expensive , u know?? If I take motor : only need 2 weeks RM5.00 (petrol)
save lots~~~ Really suffer now~~~Without motor to campus~~~T.T

2day I ate alone again~~~ Pity me again~~~
But 2day I know YunWen's housemate named MeiYoke ( BIOMed)
I planned to skip class but Swee Seong had made me cancel my plan...
I wanted to Bank and do my SSPN things.... Because I knew it yesterday only..
My friends said Impossible already.. cause the SSPN needs 2 weeks to proceed~~~
SO, I believe there are little bit late, but I still went to apply the SSPN...
2day got one new guy went into the class...Not yet know his name~~~
Guy again~~~ I need a girlfriend~~~
After Maths, S_Seong fetch me to guard house without helmet...
Haha~~~ The stupid stuff stopped him and said him... Wasting his own saliva~~~
ERM... really thank you, Swee Seong~~~ If not, I would need to walk under the hot SUn..
Tat will cause SKin Cancer~~~ T.T
After apply, everything seem calmed down to me~~~
I not that worry anymore... But, my assignments are forcing me this week..
Have to do assignment~~~ Lots to go~~~
GAMBATEH TO ME AND ALL GUYS~~~